Dilemma of the Day

A friend of mine asked me the other day what happened with my blog, why I stopped posting. I told her that it was not for lack of material, quite the opposite. I think it has to do it with my perfectionism. I write and revise. Then I read again and edit it. Then I need to get away from it, to look again with fresh eyes. Then I read it again a few times and it goes on and on. I want to present something well written, enjoyable, readable. I’m not even sure if I will ever achieve that kind of perfection.

What I know about writing pretty much comes from my love for reading. But I do want to do it correctly, I don’t want my chronicles be like those disheveled, coachless skinny shirtless kids playing soccer barefoot in the dirt, improvising, cursing, getting into fights, bleeding… I want my chronicles to be like those clean and tidy kids with uniform playing in a stadium, following the rules and the coach instructions. The problem is that very often those skinny barefoot kids are more enjoyable to watch as the game is more informal, authentic, fearless, more alive… So that’s my dilemma: should I just relax and be the barefoot kid or try to be on top of my game? I don’t even know if I am in the bench in any team! I just want to score. I want to create magic either way. I want to hear: “Gooooooooaaaaaaaaaaa!!!”

Bear with me, Bohemians.